My beautiful nephew Harvey met the world on Friday May 21st, and I am so happy that my son will be blessed with a cousin so close in age. As soon as he was born, I really started wanting to meet James even more.
May 23rd, yesterday, is my mother-in-law's birthday and her father's (husband's grandfather's) birthday. It was also my due date. I wanted little James to join us so bad yesterday!
I drank a ton of raspberry leaf tea. I walked for hours. I did pelvic tilts. Nothing. Sure, it causes some pretty intense contractions but nothing regular or frequent.
My mother-in-law, who is here visiting from Arkansas, graciously says that little James just wants his own birthday. I say that being half Peterson and half Smith, he is bound to be extremely independent. (Dear Lord please help me.)
This waiting just solidifies the lifelong lesson that I can't control everything...and that my tendency to try to control things is being thrown to the wind with this child. It's tough but I really like it.
I can't sleep normally, although I most certainly nap well :)
So, today is my first day of maternity leave. I kissed Tim goodbye and as I locked the door behind him, I sincerely looked forward to my first day as a housewife. It's three months off and then back to work, but I am really looking forward to it. I love taking care of my house and my family. And being able to nap!
It's a weird feeling though. For seven years I have pretty much been self-sufficient and worked mostly non-stop, with only a weekend between jobs and a couple of vacations.
I am truly blessed with my husband, who is so in love with me and the baby. It's evident he wants only the best for us and he's been so selfless lately. He makes me laugh and calms me when I have a "pregnancy breakdown" and I cannot count the times per day he tells me I am beautiful or he loves me.
I am deeply thankful.
I was just thinking about you and wondering how you're doing...
ReplyDeleteI also have a lifelong lesson plan about being in control...or rather; not being in control. LOL! Only, usually it entailed my babies coming early, until I expected it, and then she didn't come until her due date. (:
We love you and are praying for you!
Don't forget to post photos as soon as you can so we can see little mr.
I know we don't know each other super well but...
ReplyDeleteHang in there! He will be here soon.
Both of the boys were on their due date and Avril was two days late. I know what you're going through and it is tough. But once he's here, you'll mostly forget everything else. And these three months are gonna fly.
You're going to LOVE IT! I don't think I'll ever be able to work again. Not until the kids are grown anyway. I just love being a stay-at-home-mom. I'm so excited for you guys. The first baby is, well, not more special than the rest but just such a new experience. It's amazing. Every one is a miracle but with the first it's just you and him all day long. It's incredible. You don't get that alone time with the rest.
Anyway, enjoy the last hours of carrying him(if you can) and enjoy him even more when he's in your arms and his daddy's arms. I'll be praying for you.