James is sick again.
He cried all day yesterday.
I was very crabby.
We took a leap of faith and I am a stay at home mom now. We are so poor! But I got to be home and hold James all day yesterday without stressing about missing work.
Tim has to have gall bladder surgery--I know it is a common surgery so that is comforting. Hopefully he is scheduled for it soon so he can feel better.
Parenthood is hard. The days can be so long, but the months, and years, fly by. My baby will be a year old in only a few months.
Is there something wrong with me? I finally got what I wanted--being a stay at home mom--but now I am searching again for something. Hmmm...
I just read something encouraging about defragmenting our lives through prayer. That was just what I needed! I am blessed. It is time to start listing why (this exercise always makes me feel better!):
The sun is shining and the sky is blue. It's beautiful!
I have wonderful friends and a supportive family.
We joined the YMCA and it's awesome and has great childcare...although I'm pretty sure that is where James picked up the new bug!
I have found a church that seems to meet my needs and wants (and I'm very picky).
Two of my good friends have told me that they are throwing caution to the wind and hope to get pregnant!
I have a little boy who looks at me with love and trust. I don't know what I did to deserve that.
Well tell Tim good luck! It's no fun to think about surgery, but I got mine out when Kira was under a week old... talk about hard! BUT it was SO worth it to have no pain from that again! I highly recommend it!! ;)
ReplyDeleteAs far as you itching to do something now that you're a stay at home mama, you just need another one! Then you'll feel no need to search any longer. ;)
You may be monetarily poor, but you are rich beyond measure! I know you know that though.
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I think we are always seeking? I remember a few years ago driving across the long bridge and it dawned on me that we are not suppost to be satisfied here.... That was huge for me. (thanks for the reminder!)
I think its trying to seek the right things, the things God wants for us that is challenging, but in a good way.
Thank you Crystal for showing me something new today! And Shelby, ha! That's not what I want at all! But I am so happy for you! Boy or girl?
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